Well here I am again, stood in the queue at Slimming world waiting to weigh in and I’m really not sure what to expect this week. On the one hand I know that I’ve made lots more good choices than if I wasn’t coming here, but on the other there has been some points that weren’t great.

Saturday we had a picnic with our pastoral group and I was so focused on them and getting a picnic for 12 sorted that I didn’t think about my needs. So I had a couple of filled wraps and I know wraps aren’t the best choice, but I ate them slowly and enjoyed them fully. So I refuse to feel too guilty. Then last night we had a review at a Harvester restaurant and we were allowed whatever we liked and normally that would incite kiddie in a sweetshop behaviour but I resisted on many fronts.

I went home feeling nicely full, but not stuffed. The kids choose nachos to start and I had 4 of theirs, choosing not to have the cheesy potato skins that I wanted. I filled up on a big salad, all free and speedy, no mayo in sight and even choose low fab dressing instead of the creamy blue cheese one that I love. I then went for a rib of beef and now know this was a bad decision as whilst it’s delicious, it’s such a fatty meat and 8 had no idea. I swapped my chips for a jacket but I did put some sour cream on it. My drinks were zero calorie water and Diet Pepsi, so nothing to feel bad about there and I finished off with a child’s dessert that I ate half of. Yes, I could have gone without but this way I feel as if I enjoyed a wonderful meal with my family.

I’m now right by the scales and interested to see what they’ll say and whether I’ll then judge the indulgences of last night as worth it or not! The result is in, it was 3lb on and I feel a bit gutted. That takes my weight loss down to 2.5lbs for the two weeks but this is a journey. I’m in this for the long haul, so I’ll take it week by week and be kind to myself.

I have to do this. More planning needed this week and perhaps less eating at the main house as I don’t know how they’ve cooked many of the things.

Learning this week –

• I can’t step off plan or I will gain weight
• Losing weight is so much harder as I’ve got older
• I don’t think I’ve had enough water to drink this week
• I need to plan in more fruit and particularly more speed