I’m in a funny old place right now. There is nothing particularly wrong but if I’m honest I’m discontent, something is off-balance. It’s not that I’m wanting anything materially but there are a few areas that feel off-kilter. The word that is coming to mind is that I am discombobulated and that is really strange as I could not even have told you what it meant but having looked it up, it is perfect –
Discombobulate – to confuse or disconcert; upset; frustrate (ie: The speaker was completely discombobulated by the hecklers.)
That does feel just right for where I am at the moment. Since I received some horrifying comments on my review blog a few months ago I’ve been all over the place. I realise I’ve lost my joy and I don’t have any kind of vision of where my blogging is going or even if it should be going anywhere. I’m tempted to chuck it all in but as with everything I need to seek where God is in all this and do His will, not mine.
So I figure I need a break. Yep, another break, all I seem to do nowadays is have blogging breaks but it feels right and necessary so it is what I’ll do.
I’m going to be focusing my time in a few areas –
- Taking the focus off myself and putting it onto God and His agenda for me by spending more quiet time in the prayer centre
- Eating well and exercising to ensure that I lose some weight but not making it my be-all and end-all.
- Reading the 5 Love Languages of Children by Gary Chapman and then putting into action some of what I have learnt to ensure that my kids are feeling love in the way that speaks to them most
- Digging out my copy of Power of a Praying Wife by Stormie O’Martian and reading a small chunk each night as I need to reconnect with my husband and what better way to do it than via my Heavenly Father. (As a Christian we often speak of marriage being like a three-legged stool, one leg is the wife, another the husband and the third God and the stool only balances when we all rely on each other and carry the weight evenly.
So there we go, my four big focuses for the months ahead. I’ve no idea how long this break will take. I’m just going to be led by God and not feel obliged to either stay away or to blog.
Psalm 37:39-40
But the salvation of the righteous is from the LORD; He is their strength in time of trouble. The LORD helps them and delivers them; He delivers them from the wicked and saves them, Because they take refuge in Him.
Take care of yourselves, leave me a comment or send me an email if you’d like some prayer and I’d be really happy to oblige.
Be blessed, Mich xx
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I love the word discombobulated, I often feel like that, but I am sad that you feel that way. I hope your break does you good.
Thanks Jen, I’m sure it will. x
Oh Much I’m so sorry you’ve had some upsetting comments. Perhaps you could think of the people who wrote them and the guidance in life they need? I hope you find what you need in your blogging break.
Thanks Ness, sadly I didn’t have any tracking in place at that point so I have no idea who left the comments but whoever it is needs serious help.
Praying for you Michelle, as you take some time-out. May you be refreshed and blessed, and find great joy in deeper connection with your kids and husband. I just read the chapter on fear in “The Power of a Praying Wife” today: “Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” Also, “The Lord is my shepherd; I have everything I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength.” Bless you.
Thanks so much for your uplifting words Joanna xx
Oh lovely, I know just what you mean about feeling like something just isn’t right. I have so much going on at the moment that I’m struggling to do it all as well as I want to and I just feel like something needs to give.
I think I need to step back a little too and take time to gather myself like you’re doing.
I hope you feel more like yourself again soon x
Ohh Cass, sorry to hear you are in a similar place, it is definitely worth clearing he deck every once in a while and taking stock. I’ll be praying for you x
Ah- we all need a break from time to time and I hope that you get what you need from yours. We only get the clarity in life when we are still – just like we can only see through the water when it is still and not rippling, but it is hard in practise to be still sometimes! Good luck with it all x
You are so right, there is a passage in the Bible, which says ‘Be still and know I am God’ and it is a powerful one for me, so you hot the nail on the head for me, thanks x
I love that word. I am so sorry to hear you got some nasty comments, some people really have nothing better to do with their time these days. Hope you feel back to your old self soon xx
I have no idea what the sick person hoped to achieve from the comments, I just had to let go and pray they were a troll and nothing more serious. x
Hope to see you back again once you’ve found what’s missing!