I’m in a funny old place right now. There is nothing particularly wrong but if I’m honest I’m discontent, something is off-balance. It’s not that I’m wanting anything materially but there are a few areas that feel off-kilter. The word that is coming to mind is that I am discombobulated and that is really strange as I could not even have told you what it meant but having looked it up, it is perfect –
Discombobulate – to confuse or disconcert; upset; frustrate (ie: The speaker was completely discombobulated by the hecklers.)
That does feel just right for where I am at the moment. Since I received some horrifying comments on my review blog a few months ago I’ve been all over the place. I realise I’ve lost my joy and I don’t have any kind of vision of where my blogging is going or even if it should be going anywhere. I’m tempted to chuck it all in but as with everything I need to seek where God is in all this and do His will, not mine.
So I figure I need a break. Yep, another break, all I seem to do nowadays is have blogging breaks but it feels right and necessary so it is what I’ll do.
I’m going to be focusing my time in a few areas –
- Taking the focus off myself and putting it onto God and His agenda for me by spending more quiet time in the prayer centre
- Eating well and exercising to ensure that I lose some weight but not making it my be-all and end-all.
- Reading the 5 Love Languages of Children by Gary Chapman and then putting into action some of what I have learnt to ensure that my kids are feeling love in the way that speaks to them most
- Digging out my copy of Power of a Praying Wife by Stormie O’Martian and reading a small chunk each night as I need to reconnect with my husband and what better way to do it than via my Heavenly Father. (As a Christian we often speak of marriage being like a three-legged stool, one leg is the wife, another the husband and the third God and the stool only balances when we all rely on each other and carry the weight evenly.
So there we go, my four big focuses for the months ahead. I’ve no idea how long this break will take. I’m just going to be led by God and not feel obliged to either stay away or to blog.
But the salvation of the righteous is from the LORD; He is their strength in time of trouble. The LORD helps them and delivers them; He delivers them from the wicked and saves them, Because they take refuge in Him.
Take care of yourselves, leave me a comment or send me an email if you’d like some prayer and I’d be really happy to oblige.
Be blessed, Mich xx